I've been working out really hard to prepare myself for this race and to do some general strength building for the other sports in my life but I've realized I don't allow myself time for recovery. I'm hoping this Sunday after a long training day on the mountain, I can give my body some much needed rest because God knows how stubborn I am.
The last time I said I would give myself a rest day, I signed up for another gym membership at another gym AND I took TWO different work-out classes that same day on top of running 5 miles. The next couple of days, I was so sore that I was forced to take a rest day. So when I ask 'what's a rest day' I really mean it. And just to clarify when this happened, it was last week. Haha.
When I pour my heart into something, I just really fucking aim for the stars because I love it so much and need it in my life. I invest in the nicest gear. I do extensive research from diets, best conditioning exercises, to recovery techniques. I really put myself out there, at the expense of my own foolishness.
Earlier this morning, my personal trainer with a straight-face asked me if I'm a perfectionist. The real answer is no. But what I actually told her was that "I try really hard." The question caught me off guard which made me reevaluate my actions and what I said in that moment. Whatever set off this notion may have been due to the fact that I've set such a monumental goal for such a short timeline to prepare and maybe I said something that would exude being overconfident. The thing is, I'm not trying to finish first. I want to surprise myself by finishing at a good race time and not dying by falling off a cliff. To me, that's perfect enough. This is not my first mountain race. I've been down this path before where mental preparedness was a huge part of my regimen even if it comes off a bit superfluous.
I think we're all different in how we mentally prepare for a race. There are people who get nervous and/or have self-doubt. And there are others who believe they're winners before the race even started.
Maybe I'm just a little pumped?
Maybe I'm just a little excited?
Maybe I just need to calm down and take a rest day already!